My Depression Right Now

Last night at support group we talked about where we are right now in our depression. As I did my collage and my writing I realized that depression has become familiar almost to the point of being comfortable. It takes hard work to change and to want to be better. While that thought was kind of sad it was also hopeful because it gave me a feeling that the depression is more of a choice right now. I know I will still have bad days and not always do things that will help me avoid depression but I can make choices that will help me be happier and have more joy.

We are all connected

 

Last night I attended the Depression Support Group that my church hosts. For the opening activity we all choose a word that described us and then spelled it out with scrabble tiles. After that we connected all of our words together (we are aware that we didn't follow the actual rules). I realized looking at the words that all of the words can describe me at some point or another.

 

One of the blessings about having group at church is is that we can talk about Christ and the Atonement. One of the other ladies started talking about how there are subtle blessings that we don't always see in out lives. One of the blessings I realized that has come due to depression is deep friendships. Almost all of my close friends in Baltimore have come through this group and the sharing that we do. While I had hoped to overcome depression and not have to deal with it anymore that wasn't the blessing God sent me right now.