Saturday, July 6, 2013

Don't Rock the Boat

The month of June was a little more stable for me. Even with going home to Iowa, which caused a minor homesickness break down, June was pretty good. I am still not back to doing everything I know I should or even want to because it scares me. I was explaining to Eric that right now I am floating but stable in a tiny little row boat. I know if I put the oars in and start paddling I will make more progress and go where I need to go. But I am scared that in the process of getting my oars ready and starting to move that I will rock the boat and start to sink again. It isn't the best way to think but that was the only way I could really explain it.

Eric and I have a really big decision to make about a job in the next six to eight weeks and I know I need to get back to reading scriptures and praying so I will be able to be in tune to what the Spirit tells us about the job.

It is time to start rowing.


  1. Hi Kristelle!

    I just found your blog and I find such inspiration in your honesty approach to blogging. I think we can grow so much from one another and our experiences.

    I wish you all the best as you prepare for this big decision in your lives...

    I'll be eager to read more about you and your journey!

    Sending you lots of love tonight-- even if it seems cheesy from a stranger... I totally am :)

    Much love


  2. Jacy,

    Thank you for your comment and your support. It can always be a bit scary to share things online but when I get comments like yours I know it is worth it.

  3. You can do it--best of luck. I'm struggling daily to get ANYTHING at all done, and I've discovered that simply putting it on my calendar will frequently help, psychologically to help me get stuff done.

    Hugs sweetie

  4. I also become easily overwhelmed. I've learned to cut myself some slack...spend 30 minutes doing housework - no matter what it is; keep my bed matter how small the task may seem, I feel like I am in control. I am able to go to work and "look after" my son in prison, but when I get home sometimes I feel like there's always something that still needs to be done. Well, I've learned that it will ALWAYS be that way and is no reflection on my weaknesses. I hope you can move closer to your parents and siblings, but depend on Heavenly Father and He will be a lamp onto thy feet withersoever thou should go! All my love to you both!