Monday, April 22, 2013

The Ups and Downs

When I started this blog I was on a pretty good UP and I believed I was done with my DOWNS. Last week proved me way wrong. On Wednesday I had the day off from work and I just kept feeling worse and worse the longer I sat but when I tried to get up and do something I just kept thinking about all I hadn't done.   Once Eric got home he knows enough about what is going on the get me out of the house. We went out to eat and then did a Wal-Mart run.

It is the hardest thing to feel a DOWN coming and not really be able to fight it. I am always grateful when Eric comes home but he also makes me acknowledge what is going on. When I am by myself I can get lost in my movies, T.V. and books. I would like to say that I can choose to stop sliding DOWN and only focus on the UPs but sometimes it is stronger than I am . I will admit that this DOWN was helped by PMS and this one was a doozy.

The other factors with this DOWN was my fault. I will admit that I haven't reading my scriptures, praying, working out, eating right or sleeping appropriate amounts. There are times when I feel I am strong enough to fight the depression without doing the above things but I am not. Doing those things doesn't keep the depression away all the time but it does help me fight back a little harder.

Now I need to choose to work on doing the things that help make me stronger.


  1. I'm so sorry you're DOWN right now! I can relate when it comes to knowing what will help me but not always doing it! When a person is DOWN, there's not energy to do those things. I am working on it too! You're not alone!

  2. I'm not sure what it is...but I thought sunshine would make me feel better, but it hasn't. In fact a few weeks ago I started this downward spirl of inexplicable anxiety and depression and I can't seem to get out of. Some days it's okay...but lately not so much. I can't wait until our insurance kicks in so I can go to a therapist.